To my dearest one,
For this past few days, its have been hard for both of us. I know. and u keep suppporting me no matter what, u'll be there. and thats what make me love u more, miss you more. i read the letter you give me on our last meetings in kmk, it was months ago. do you remember? the day thats supposed to be beautiful, turns out disaster. But we did spend our last day together right and it doesnt matter to me our plan didnt work out, as long as im with you im fine. totally fine. thats matter the most, with you. i wasnt very consistant with the feelings a had to you. sometimes im better off without you but most of the times, dont. since november 2014 till now, not even once i had a day in my life goes on without thinking about you. not a single day. trust me on this ok. i can stand two days not talking to you, day three? man im going crazy. feels imperfect. talking to you everyday makes me feels uncomfy tho. to me, maybe if we talks too much, one of us will got bored, and out of ideas to talk about and end up with silence, like we usually did before, ended up our conversation hanging. its better that way i guess. Not even once we talk about our relationship. well this is our first long-distance relationship aite,even we'd never declare anything. i didnt hoping or expect much from you. me myself dont know how to stay long enough until we get married( if we have
jodoh) but im trying my best. being with you bring out the best of me, babe. this was the longest relationship ive been to and i want you to know that. every relationship needed trust, commitment and loyal. i do trust you and im pretty sure i am loyal, most of the time, i am. commitment? i dont know. i dont know about you either. well, lets not talk about this yet. i mean, we're still young. one day we'll bring out this topic again, but not now.For now, we should have fun, further our studies and whatever needs. i know your kinda a family-, family comes first, second friends. maybe the third was me, or your cat. it was nice. i like it, pretty much. remember back then at college, we're watching
how i met your mother that morning, and after that i borrowed ur laptop to copy some movies. On that night, i'd 'discover' your laptop, looking through the music and pictures. i saw your family photos, during eid celebration i guess. wah, what a big family u have. it was nice, so nice that i actually wanted to be part of it. can i? starting to day-dreamed. Next month, we're going to different path. Everything will be different, we'll meet new people, learn new things, new problems we have to face, new journey, new friends. we'll get a new life, the real one. Uni's life. i was excited for that, really. We'll be too busy doing things and its predictable we will start to forget each other, at least that's what i thought i would be. but we have plans remember? going to the beach. looking foward to that day. i was hoping to see you before the end of the month. maybe i didnt try hard enough, didnt make enough efforts to do so.im sorry ill figure something out. ive been doing some reading these past few days, dont laugh ok. i was bored. but, writing you this electronic-letter isnt because i was bored okay, dont misunderstand, its because i miss you.
_swoshx
